I have never been without the desire to have a Horse. I believe that is because they lead me to my True North, my internal spiritual, emotional, and indigenous place of belonging.
I was raised very fundamentally in a harsh religious environment. God was defined as a God of wrath, and a God of love, meaning, as long as you do everything he said, you will be ok, but mess up and look out. Because you will pay. And pay. And pay. Only groveling, remorse and contrition will help you now. And even then, you will be known by God and others as only your mistakes.
This I have carried with me much of my life no matter how much I tried to find a different way.
Animals have always been my solace. In good times and in struggle, I seek their company.
I love my dogs and my cat, I cannot imagine life without a dog, but Horses have a different and unique place and influence in my life. I have come to believe that they are my Spiritual Consorts. I can hear the voice of what is Divine through them and side-step the wrath of a punishing God just waiting to catch me doing something wrong.
When we spend time together just connecting, I feel my thoughts quieten, my body relax, and my fears and struggles fade into the background. To me, this is an example of what a God of love would be. God is represented through my Horses.
My Horses never seek to punish me. They do give me feedback on what and who I am being with them, but they do not hold grudges. They not only allow me to make mistakes and still be welcome in their company, they encourage me to explore my ideas, to try, to fail, and to return to my place of belonging safe and welcome.
As Human in a busy world, it’s easy to be knocked off balance. A world of responsibility and obligation, technology, and opportunity demands much of us and we can flounder as we look for ways back to our individual True North. Our place of an authentically balanced life.
Our True North holds what is real for us, what sustains our purpose. It shelters our vulnerabilities and makes us welcome no matter what. Its where we feel them most at home within ourselves.
My Horses are my True North. They are my Spiritual Consorts that remind me that I have a place of belonging, and that who I am and what I have to say matters. That my purpose is important and that they are here to conspire with me as I explore the aspects of a Divine that was omitted from the harsh doctrine of my youth.
My Horses are extremely compassionate towards me in this, as though they feel me searching to find Divine in something I love. They know that because of my love and connection to them that I am able to experience the Divine.
They know they are Horses, and they will always answer to the instincts of the Horse, but they also know they are the conduit for me to know the Divine.
The Invitation
If you are a person that struggles with a traditional aspect of God or a Divine, perhaps this is why you are drawn to Horses. They can be a Divine conduit to soulful introspect and otherworldly transformation. When spending time with your Horse, let go of idea and expectations, just be open and trusting of the messages you receive from your Horse. Remember, most answers are small whispers, and not booming voices from on high. Listen for the whispers.